Planned Change

This verse has been driving me absolutely insane over the past few months, for several reasons.

A year and a half ago we made the decision to pick up and move back home, to Texas from Colorado where we lived for almost 4 years.  Shelby was offered an amazing job and then all of the pieces really just started falling into place.  I have always believed that when you have prayed about things and then through your praying and family discussions you come to a consensus everything starts to fall in place; God is working!  Everything really did, that is until we got in place.  From some growing pains with Taylor, to finding a new church, to dealing with the loss of my little brother from another mother made us question if this really was the move God wanted us to make.

We had prayed and prayed and then took steps and prayed for the steps to only be successful if this was the right move and it was. Everything led to this being the right move so why was it so hard now that we made it?

Well, I have my theories but I have also read and read in the bible that God does not always make things easy (man I wish HE would!).  He gave us the ability to make choices and with that power comes a lot of struggles in our life.  I also know that as much as I would like to think that every choice I made during this move and every choice our family made during this move was prayed over, I would be lying to you and to myself.  So, I can pretty much guarantee you that during this process I made choices that were for me and strictly my decision and not right in line with what God wanted me to do.  I am also sure that the struggles that have occurred are strictly due to my decisions and not the plan that God put in place.

The other side of this coin is that we do not remember all the good that has come out of this nearly as much as we remember the bad.  We got to spend some valuable time with Shelby’s Papa prior to him unexpectedly passing away, that we would not have gotten had we still lived in Colorado, our new home is spectacular, Taylor’s doing great in school (even though he doesn’t think so), and of course the fact that it is Oct 21 and I am sitting outside and it is 70 degrees while Colorado is under a freeze warning. The list could seriously go on and on.  It truly is so hard for us to think about the good things even close to as much as we think about the bad.

So with all that said, I do believe we are exactly where God wants us to be, for now, but this verse has still been driving me nuts.  With the endless choices we can make in our life God already has it planned out from beginning to end!!  He had it planned out before we were ever conceived. How amazing is our God!?! This verse should never scare you but should always comfort you. No matter where you go or the choices you make as long as the most important choice, accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior, has been made; you may trip, fall, crash, burn, or even all out be a crash test dummy but when you turn back to your heart He will be there and His plan for you will be waiting!! That my friends is an absolute amazing promise!!!

Until next time!